The Fabulist

2012-01-15T02:58:00.000-08:00

A whole lot of Learnin', Livin' and Lovin'

I think I have found my niche and I'm definitely sure that I'll be more than happy to do this up until I retire! I want to venture on making my own creative group - organize, plan, design, create, conceptualize, creative ideas for individuals, companies, etc. Don't have the time to think of ways on how to make presentations, events, projects creative? Let me and my upcoming group do the dirty work for you guys! =) I'm working on the platform and soon I'll be jump starting this big leap in my career path. I'm hoping for the full support of all of you guys!

Condom Avenue

2012-01-15T02:39:00.000-08:00

Cover art for my upcoming book! Please keep it locked in here for updates of the final release.

PASSION + VERSATILITY = [MY] NICHE?

2011-12-19T11:59:00.001-08:00

Nurse, Writer, Blogger, Model, Stylist, Organizer, Customer Representative, Trainer, Dancer, Artist - So many labels one person - ME!

Being versatile is something innate in me. I know I can excel on a specific field only if I put my heart into it but I can definitely say that I can only be happy doing one or two things out of those many labels I have listed above.

Right now, I can't seem to find my niche although I thought I have but turns out i'm totally clueless. I don't know where to start. Opportunities are vague and time is my greatest enemy. Having the resources to start exploring possibilities is also a bit challenging.

I don't want to be just someone who dreamed of becoming like this and like that- all that crap. I want to be someone who I can be proud of, whose really made something out of oneself.

I need answers...
I need some kind of direction.
I need to know where to start and how...

I can either stress about this damn dilemma or I should start looking for ways and just make it happen.

At the end of the day, I'm still the one who has to decide. What ever I decide on doing it will be up to my iniatives and courage to take the leap. All I have to do is figure out which way I have to leap into...complicated huh? Welcome to my beautiful misery!

2011-12-18T11:35:00.000-08:00

I love colors!
colors of all shades and tones...
a touch of pink in black makes it so dramatic.
Shades of Black and White make the very picture of imagination.
They are like blank canvases that floods the background.
What could life be without color? What would life be if I was blind?

Color blind or not its better than not seeing color at all.
I'm a man in search of color.
My friends say that I'm as colorful as the rainbow but "Where art thou?"
A dash of green, a pinch of yellow...a pigment of blue in life so melancholic and mellow.

I try to surround myself with colorful things but I can't seem to blend in. I used to be a chameleon but now I'm a beautiful mess amongst the colors around me.
Do i really have to mesh well or should I stand out and be a surreal focal point in my very own master piece?

Whatever happened to the colors of my life?
I'm like a washed out painting...to some, no longer worth looking but to others it was still art.
I know i'm not making any sence but this is the main point of this realization.
The irony of making sense out of not making sense at all.

Color me badly and I will still look almost perfect.
Bring me color and I shall give color in return.
Ever colorful, ever true...I have lost all my colors without you.

Fashion Iconography

2011-10-19T23:41:00.000-07:00

I am writing an article about one of my favorite websites to date - www.lookbook.nu. I discovered lookbook a few months ago. And ever since that very day, I was hooked. The site inspires me in so many different ways. In photography, fashion, modeling, trends and even culture. If I will do well on my article then it inspired my writing too. I can't wait to finish my article and maybe if I get lucky it'll get published in a magazine. Soon, I'll have my own portfolio in this site you'll see. [laughs] I'll just have to build up my woredrobe, get a good camera and I'm in business baby!

Try scanning through the photos being showcased in the website and you'll surely say "Damn!, There so fashionable!" How in the world did they get so fashionably forward. They have become icons to those people who acknowledge and appreciate fashion as an art and not just some kind of dress rehearsal.

Bottom line is that these lookbook members are not just punks who think fashion is cool and trendy. For them, it is more than that, it is art. It is a beacon to express individuality and it is taken seriously- but not in a boring way that is, in a creative way for that matter. So what are you guys waiting for? Does anyone of you fashion freaks need an instant inspiration on how to look deviantly smashing?....Then click, click, click away and enjoy!

I'm Outtie!

What's your formula in LIFE?

2011-10-18T08:13:00.000-07:00

Eat, Pray, Love is one of the novels that I never grow tired of reading. When the movie was released I had the pleasure of watching my imaginations come to life. Almost everything in the movie was exactly as I imagined it. Although there were a few things missing but who cares, I love every bit of the movie. For some, it turned out to be a lil bit boring but for me, Liz Gilbert was an inspiration. She had a solid formula and she worked really hard on focusing on it. Eat, satisfying her mouth in two ways- through her palate and through learning a new language. Pray, surrendering herself and giving devotion to the higher power. and Love, discovering that balance in love is by not anyone love you less than you love yourself. This formula gave her direction. It made her alive. It even made her give in to love again. Her quest for self discovery has brought her so much more than discovering herself. She found a whole new way of looking at life in general. Balance is the key word all through out her quest but also learning that losing ones balance on anything may it love or passion is part of bringing balance to ones life. she wanted to have control but in order to do that she had to overcome a series of fears along the way like self forgiveness and self sacrifice. In the end she was able to find the perfect word for herself "attraversiamo" which means "let's cross over". She was no longer a woman in search of a word. She had found herself in happiness and in tuned with her new life.

Am I Happy??

2011-10-18T07:28:00.000-07:00

A girl once told me that happiness depends on how the person perceives it. Yep, she is right! Another person's happiness may not be the other ones cup of tea. It varies all the time. My quest for happiness is never ending. Honestly, I am not happy right now because I don't feel that I am. I have experienced temporary bliss once in awhile like when I'm with my lover or friends or when I'm alone writing about stuff that only I could ever understand. People wont understand how it is important for me to be happy because it totally affects everything I do.

I feel so empty, hollow and numb. I don't know why but its constantly bothering me and it has been affecting me, my job, my friends, even my family. Am I in a state of depression? I'm a nurse I should know right? But i can't seem to figure out what is happening to me why i suddenly feel down and lifeless. I will get to the bottom of this and when I do, I will try to make it right. For the meantime, I'm going to crawl in a ball, let my thoughts consume me and just surrender.

Gimmie Five!

2011-10-17T06:54:00.000-07:00

One of my best brats shared this picture on my wall on facebook. It was simple but interestingly direct! Amazing! Thanks Babalicious! You're the best!

I'm Outtie!

Cancer Sticks

2011-10-17T06:30:00.000-07:00

I wish I know how to quit YOU!

Lonely Planet!

2011-10-17T06:23:00.000-07:00

Travelling is one of the things that I have always wanted to do. I was given the chance to venture to new grounds when I accepted a job offer here in Dubai. I was excited because it was my first time to get out of the country and try my luck on different soils. With nothing but wits and some few stuff, I soared to unknown territories. The experiences I gained here is enormously relevant to my life now. It made me realize a lot of things in life, love and work. I am thankful for all the experiences that make up the very person that I am now today. I'm pretty much ready for almost anything that comes my way and I'm armed to face them in battle

Yes, working and living here in Dubai is like a dream come true to many but for me, not anymore. I have realized that I'm not the type of person who can stay and work for a long time in a different place or country. Its not homesickness, its different, its who I am. I'm the type who only wants to travel for a few months and experience the culture and the life but not live with it forever. I want to enjoy the place from a travelers point of view and not from an employees perspective. Its an entirely different view when you go to a place to travel than to work. Either way, both has its advantages. I'm pretty much sure that I'll be stuck in here for a little while so I'm just trying to gain more experiences as I can.

Travelling alone was never an issue for me ever since. I even prefer to travel alone. It can be like a soul searching quest to find who you really are and what you really want in life. That is what I have found in here. You know what I really like? I like travelling but not as much as being with my loved ones. I want to write about my travels. I want to embrace culture and the lifestyle of a certain place and when I get back home I would write about the things that made me feel so inspired. I want to be alive again. I want to bring back the colors of my life. My life wasn't that all good but it was colorful and full of life. I was in simple terms HAPPY!

They say that happiness depends on how the person pictures it, yeah but happiness is also where you feel your heart is. My heart beats for something different, something that makes it beat faster and slower at the same time everyday. It's not in here. My life in Dubai is like watching old boring re-runs on television. It has no magic at all. Its not all about the money. I can work in a prestigious company and get a really fat paycheck but if i'm not happy, its still not the same.

I used to have a pocket full of sunshine and rainbows but now...there is nothing but dust.

I bet this is quiet depressing to read huh? Yes, because it is. I have mustered all my strength to stay on top of this depressing thought but sometimes when I write It just comes out like a word vomit. My sentiments are dying to get the hell out of my system and I think the best time would be when I'm writing. Hopefully, the next time I get the chance to travel, it will be something more inspiring and enjoyable. Fingers crossed!

I'm Outtie!

Voyeurism: Perverted Much?!

2011-10-17T01:40:00.000-07:00

I just got a bad news earlier this afternoon from my co-worker that one of my room mates was sent to jail because he was caught recording videos of guys and girls in the bathroom of our own villa. Imagine? I did not see this one coming especially from him who I knew was a very nice guy.Well, I was one of those guys who was caught on record. I feel really violated. I haven't seen the video yet but boy am I curious. According to my co worker, I was doing some weird stuff on the video. So far, I can only think of two things. First, of course, I'm no hypocrite there will be a time when you feel the urge to satisfy yourself because your partner is like miles away from you-so what do you do? Of course masturbate what else can you do? I'm not embarrassed to say it because for me its a normal thing and its true. We all do it right? Unless you are some kind of psychologically challenged freak. Second, if posing in front of the mirror pretending that i'm in my very own NAKED photo shoot is weird then this is definitely in the list.

I pity the guy who did this though, his life and his family's future obliterated by perversion? I don't know how will his wife handle this major set back. If he was bored and damn horny he could have downloaded porn right? I mean, there are a lot of ways to kill these two mood busters. Well, he was creative enough to think of this idea. For me, I think he was just plain sick-mentally that is because common sense tells you that these kind of acts can get you in to a big trouble especially in a very conservative country like UAE. I guess he liked the thrill of doing it because it was a lil' bit risque and the addictive feeling of adrenalin rushing to the veins pushed him to go for it! The feeling of being naughty, of being deviant, we all experienced this kind of feeling. We know that its prohibited but still we go for it just to prove to ourselves that we can do it and can get away with it. The pride of doing a bad deed can amp up our ego so high that it breeds self satisfaction and confidence.

Well, so much for his good guy-gone bad image, he is now being deported back to our country and will totally be banned from all middle east countries. His hard work and sacrifice here will all go down the drain with him and that is all because of his urge to relieve the feeling of being horny-which you can simply do it without getting yourself deported by the way. Jerk it off dude! You may lack visual aids but this is a good time to let your imagination run wild. Its safer than getting your ass kicked out of this country!

I'm Outtie!

2011-10-09T04:37:00.000-07:00

Working in a different country made me realize how important coping mechanisms are, I never imagined I had an ability to deal with such drastic situations but I did and it was fulfilling on my part. Yesterday, I just scrapped out my blog for three years. One of my co-worker asked me how did I feel after I scrapped it out, I said I felt so liberated and different. Knowing myself that it would be hard for me to let go of it because I easily get attached to anything-my work, to people, my stuff but clicking that delete button yesterday took like a nano second. I was no longer attached to that blog because I knew that the blog was not totally me. It was a reflection of a shallow and conceited me. It had no substance of some sort and it only showcased a bunch of hunks posing for the camera half naked. I didn't get to practice my writing skills either because there was nothing to really write about. It was the end of an era and I'm starting a new chapter of my life. I'm in this strange new country, new field of job, which I hate by the way and most importantly a new perspective in life.

This blog is not about getting a lot of followers or advertisements. This blog is an extension of my thoughts, a reflection of who I really am and who I want to be in the future, what I really think and what I really want to say. It will no longer be just a blog. Yes, it sure looks like just any other blog but for me it isn't. I will build a relationship with this blog. Honestly, this blog is more like a therapy for me. It heals my frustrations away. Writing actually heals me but since I was never given the chance to write about stuff that everyone could read, my works were only for my eyes to see and not for everyone so I decided why not become a blogger to get my works out of obscurity.

I'm hoping for the success of this new blog. It may not generate a lot of avid followers but I hope it will catch a lot of readers. Getting my message through is whats important. To know that someone is reading my work out there whoever he or she is, getting to read a piece of my mind is something greater than having a lot of quantifiable profit.

Thank you, This is Mikaelo Legaspino jump starting my new and improved personal blog "The Fabulist"!

Trivia: Fabulist is another word for storyteller or writer!...

Hope you'll enjoy reading my blog! Share your thoughts about it, don't hesitate to comment anything! I believe that there is no such thing as bad publicity so comment away!

I'm Outtie!