They say that a true friend is like a copper mine. Copper is one of the most durable and useful metals in the world. Just like copper, a friend can aid you when you are in need or if you are in trouble. He tells you all the things that you need to know; makes sure that you are in tuned with everything. He can also be beneficial at some point of time; they are very dependable and will not just leave you hanging. But if you try digging a little bit deeper through the Copper mine, there you’ll find Silver. A very precious metal intended to captivate our senses. Strong and malleable, a beauty of its own luster, it gives you a sense of security and the confidence as well as the practicality of its essence. A friend can be a good confidant, a strong ally and a comfort zone. Knowing that he is there will make it seemed that everything is going to be alright. If you feel like digging some more, a bit deeper will lead you to find the most desirable and one of the most expensive metals on earth – Gold! You will realize that there is more to him than just a strong and loyal friend. You have seen past his façade and lead you right through his inner core. A discovery so appealing you would want to dig deeper. As you go deeper in to this amazing path, you’ll soon find a stone so strong, so desirable, a one of a kind gem that exudes value and worth. A rock so exquisite that it sometimes brings tears to even the coldest heart – Diamonds. I need not elaborate more. By just the word itself, you would know how priceless one can be. Well, for this past few months, that’s what I have been doing, digging into the Copper mine of a very special friend. I call him “Z”.
Later did I realize that my feelings for him grew deeper and deeper. It was not a smart choice for me because he was totally honest about his intentions. He quoted that he values friendship more than any romantic relationship and so he doesn’t want to engage on such things. He believed that being in a serious relationship will only limit his way of expressing himself. He wants to have the liberty of doing all the things that he wanted without someone monitoring him or scrutinizing him. For short, he doesn’t want a leash on his neck. I totally understood that, but still fell for him and I was pretty honest about how I felt for him. He accepted my love but assured that he could not give me the exact love I was asking for in return. At first, I felt like my heart stopped and it didn’t know how to start beating again. I continued to see him, even though it was painful at first. But the way he treated me didn’t change. He was the same person I fell in love with. He was sweet, loving and so caring that I couldn’t resist not seeing him. It’s like he has this enormous effect on me that leaves me powerful but at the same time submissive.
“Me & You, Just us Two” was our mantra. We have this certain kind of understanding that only him and me could ever validate. Although, there were times when I felt pain like hell because I could tell that he was seeing other guys that according to him he treats the same way as I do. A big step on my ego but hey, I still managed to be patient. There was even this one time that he made me meet one of these guys. And this particular guy openly and honestly showed his intense attraction to him. That time all I could do was to be strong and be mature. I was calm and composed and I put up a pretty strong fight. My exact words were “It was like I was facing a firing squad” but I survived. Now, I see our relationship as complicated but in a good way. I mean we are both weird, we share the same interest and sometimes what we enjoy doing doesn’t necessarily thrills everyone, it bores them. But for us, it’s a moment that is worth cherishing.
If you are asking me where I stand right now when comes to our relationship? I will probably say “Right where I want it to be.” I love him unconditionally, he knows that and he does the same but in his own manner. Right now, I don’t really care. All I know is that we understand each other, we are sensitive to each other’s needs, we accept each other without any judgment, and we are brutally honest to each other and like each other’s company. I consider him my best friend but with other perks that doesn’t come in the usual best friend package. You know what I mean by this. It’s an understanding that we share between ourselves. There is a line in a song that says “Wise men say, only fools rush in, but I can’t help falling in love with you” that’s exactly what I felt when I dug deeper into his Copper mine. This is a testimony to my beloved “Z” a person who I value, treasure and love the most. A companion, a teacher, a brother, a friend! I love you!
